Demi Lovato: Dancing With the Devil Trailer Details Singer’s 2018 Overdose: “She Should Be Dead”

Demi Lovato is opening up about some of her most vulnerable moments in her new YouTube documentary event, Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil. In a new trailer for the doc released today, the singer invites a camera crew into her life before and after her near-fatal overdose, showing moments of her partying while struggling with sobriety and what led up to her hospitalization in July 2018. “I’ve had so much I’ve wanted to say over the past two years, wanting to set the record straight about what it was that happened,” Lovato says in today’s trailer.

Dancing with the Devil, which will premiere this spring as a four-part event, promises “unprecedented access” to the star and a look into what led to her overdose, and her “awakenings” after she survived. Viewers will see a glimpse at Lovato “during the most trying time of her life as she unearths her prior traumas and discovers the importance of her physical, emotional, and mental health,” per YouTube. “Far deeper than an inside look beyond the celebrity surface, the docuseries is an intimate portrait of addiction, and the process of healing and empowerment.”

Today’s trailer doesn’t shy away from Lovato’s public struggles with substance abuse, featuring confessions from the singer — “I don’t even know why I’m sober anymore,” she admits in one scene — and interviews with friends and family that provide insight into Lovato’s fight for sobriety. “Demi’s good at making you believe that she’s okay,” Eddie De La Garza, Lovato’s stepdad, explains, while her sister, Madison De La Garza, adds, “Demi’s very good at hiding what she needs to hide.”

The first glimpse at Dancing with the Devil also provides specific details about Lovato’s overdose, which led to three strokes and a heart attack that she says could have killed her. “I crossed a line that I had never crossed,” Lovato says. While she doesn’t reveal more, Lovato’s close friend, Matthew Scott Montgomery, asks in an interview, “Are we talking about heroin, are we doing that?”

While Lovato takes her fans into a darker place than she’s ever revealed, she also focuses on the ways she’s changed since her overdose. “I’m ready to get back to doing what I love, which is making music,” she says.

Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil premieres in four parts on YouTube, with the first installment debuting on Lovato’s YouTube Channel Tuesday, March 23. The following three parts will be released weekly on Tuesdays. Watch the full trailer for Lovato’s new docuseries in the video above.

If you or someone you know is in need of help with substance abuse, contact the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) helpline at 1-800-662-HELP.